Track 10 · Dreaming of no plan B
Plan B Broke More Hearts Than I Meant To
Track 10 from Dreaming of no plan B.
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About Plan B Broke More Hearts Than I Meant To
The core emotional theme of 'Plan B Broke More Hearts Than I Meant To' revolves around the struggle with emotional intimacy and the fear of vulnerability, particularly shaped by ADHD. The artist reflects on how his tendency to create backup plans led to unintentional heartache, revealing the deep connection between mental health and relationships.
Track 10 on Dreaming of no plan B. Duration: 5:29.
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was always a backup plan away.
Never trusted one tomorrow,
’cause my mind kept runnin’ yesterday.
So I held on loose to good folks,
too scared to let 'em hold me tight.
I’d smile and say “I’m fine,”
while my thoughts ran off at night.
but I kept them at arm’s length—
‘cause when your brain is always jumpin’,
you forget you still got strength.
And every time they asked for truth,
I hid behind another door…
now I’m standin’ in the wreckage
of the people I hurt before.
on the way to stayin’ safe.
For the nights I left you wonderin’
why I drifted into space.
It ain’t that I didn’t love you—
God knows I wanted to.
But when a mind keeps buildin’ Plan B’s,
Plan A never gets through.
but I guess I finally see—
my fallback plans
just fallout plans
that kept y’all far from me.
and my pulse would misread fear.
I’d run scenarios in seconds
that would take you years to hear.
You’d ask what I was thinkin’,
I’d choke up, swallow truth—
‘cause inside me was a thunderstorm
I’d been fightin’ since my youth.
even when it came in love.
I’d brace for you to leave me
before the hurt fit like a glove.
But I know now the real damage
was built inside my chest—
I was so busy survivin’,
I forgot how to love my best.
on the way to stayin’ safe.
For the nights I left you wonderin’
why I drifted into space.
It ain’t that I didn’t love you—
God knows I wanted to.
But when a mind keeps buildin’ Plan B’s,
Plan A never gets through.
but I guess I finally see—
my fallback plans
just fallout plans
that kept y’all far from me.
I’d give the truth I never gave—
the love that hid behind the noise,
the trust I couldn’t save.
’Cause no one should have to guess
if they meant somethin’ real…
while I was busy calculatin’
how to never hurt or feel.
ain’t the same as bein’ alone.
And all the folks I pushed away
deserved more heart than I had shown.
So here’s my broken apology,
in a voice that’s finally true:
I never feared your love, darlin’—
I just didn’t know what to do.
on the way to stayin’ safe.
For the times I shut you out
when I should’ve held embrace.
It ain’t that I didn’t love you—
Lord knows I always knew.
But when your mind keeps makin’ Plan B’s,
Plan A can’t pull through.
if you ever think of me:
I wasn’t runnin’ from your love…
I was runnin’ from *Plan B*.
that’s the hardest part of my ADHD.
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What this song means
The core emotional theme of 'Plan B Broke More Hearts Than I Meant To' revolves around the struggle with emotional intimacy and the fear of vulnerability, particularly shaped by ADHD. The artist reflects on how his tendency to create backup plans led to unintentional heartache, revealing the deep connection between mental health and relationships.
William Cloudborn likely wanted to communicate the complexities of navigating love and safety in the face of ADHD. By sharing his personal experiences, he aims to foster understanding and empathy towards those who struggle with similar challenges, highlighting the importance of authentic connection over self-protection.
Listeners can apply the song's wisdom by recognizing the impact of their own fears and defenses on relationships. It encourages individuals to confront their vulnerabilities, fostering deeper connections and open communication with loved ones. By understanding that safety shouldn't come at the cost of emotional closeness, one can work towards healthier interactions in their everyday life.