Track 7 · Attention Is Love
Chairman of the Chaos
Track 7 from Attention Is Love.
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Track 7 on Attention Is Love. Duration: 4:03.
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Same room, same agenda, new chaos.
I called this meeting to “have a productive day.”
My brain brought seventeen opinions, two emergencies,
and one guy named “What If” who never stops talking.
I’m the chairman… apparently.
Said “Let’s do one simple thing” — a modest little plan
Then my mind kicked open the doors like a honky-tonk bar
“Good morning, everybody!” from the backseat of my car
“Perfection” brought a checklist that’s a country mile
“Regret” keeps hittin’ replay on that one dumb line I said
And “Hungry” keeps objecting ‘cause I haven’t been fed
Like they’re paid by the word
So I tap my coffee cup like a gavel
And try to be heard
Tryin’ to keep it on the track
Callin’ “Order in the headspace!”
While my thoughts talk back
But I’m learnin’ I don’t have to chase ‘em
I can choose what I allow
Yeah, it’s loud in here…
But I’m leadin’ now
“People-Pleaser” is campaignin’ for a different role
“Shame” is whisperin’ rumors, “Confidence” is late
And “Motivation” keeps textin’ me: “Running ten minutes, wait”
“Impulse” just hit “send” before I could hit “wait”
And “Overthinking” wrote a speech with footnotes on my fear
Then “Reality” cleared its throat and said “We still live here”
Tryin’ to keep it on the track
Callin’ “Order in the headspace!”
While my thoughts talk back
But I’m learnin’ I don’t have to chase ‘em
I can choose what I allow
Yeah, it’s loud in here…
But I’m leadin’ now
Noise is not a verdict
It’s just a crowded room
You can let ‘em all speak
Without lettin’ ‘em choose
So I name the loudest one: “That’s fear again”
I breathe like I mean it, slow-count to ten
Then I make one motion: “Next small step”
Seconded by calm… even if it’s outnumbered yet
I just need a seat at the table
I don’t need to win every argument
I just need to stay capable
Yeah, the room still gets rowdy
But I’m keepin’ my hand on the wheel
Even when it’s loudy
I’m not fired, I’m not failing
I’m just learnin’ how
To run this wild committee
With a kinder kind of “now”
But listen—if your head is loud, it doesn’t mean you’re broken.
It might just mean you’re alive… and you care.
Grab the gavel.
One small step.
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What this song means
At its core, 'Chairman of the Chaos' holds space for the chaotic and often overwhelming experience of navigating one's thoughts and emotions, particularly for those with ADHD. It captures the feeling of being in a crowded room of competing thoughts, where anxiety, regret, and self-doubt vie for attention, leaving one feeling fragmented and out of control. If you find yourself struggling to manage your mind's noise, this song offers a comforting acknowledgment of that struggle, reminding you that you're not alone in wrestling with the chaos.
In writing this song, William Cloudborn communicates the complexities of living with an active mind, illustrating the inner dialogue that often feels like a chaotic meeting. He wants listeners to understand that it's okay to feel overwhelmed and that they have the power to choose how to respond to their thoughts, as seen in lines like 'I can choose what I allow.' Through the metaphor of being the 'chairman' of one's own chaos, he gently guides listeners toward self-compassion and acceptance of their multifaceted inner experiences.
This song serves as a companion during those hectic mornings when the mind feels cluttered with tasks and worries, or in moments of self-doubt when shame and regret creep in. It’s perfect for anyone caught in a shame spiral or facing a tough decision, offering a sense of clarity and grounding. By embracing the noise as a natural part of being human, it invites listeners to take a breath, acknowledge their feelings, and take one small step forward, making it a soothing presence in the everyday chaos of life.